“…And were at their wits end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble And he brought them out of their distress…My heart is confident in you, O God; no wonder I can sing your praises with all my heart!” (Psalm 107:27b-28; 108:1)

Hopeless and confused, describes how I was feeling in 2015 after hearing from several doctors that I would need surgery.  So, waiting to see the neurosurgeon for my herniated discs, I didn’t have any hope for recovery apart from surgery. As I reclined on the sofa, also recovering from a bout of vertigo, our youngest daughter and her husband came by to give me a belated Mother’s Day gift. I will never forget how beautiful she looked that day. As she walked around the sofa and handed me a small piece of paper, I understood why she was beaming, and even seemed to be glowing. My gift was a sonogram printout of my “in utero” grandchild! Unfortunately, shock overshadowed any elation I might have felt.

My mind raced: “how would I be any help? How involved could I be as a grandmother? I could hardly walk to the bathroom on my own!” All I was able to see was what I could not do on my own. I felt helpless! But it is there that God meets us, in our helpless state. He works and provides just what we need when He is invited into the mess. I marvel that He stepped into the uncertainty I was facing and provided me a better way. The neurosurgeon suggested physical therapy and wrote out a prescription on the spot. It was hard work and a slow process at times but a better one for me. Our Father does not give us the “one size fits all” remedy, but hones in on the greatest needs of our heart.

“How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered!” –Psalm 139:17, NLT

What an Awesome God! What an Awesome Father! He really does provide for the deepest needs of our souls and takes the burden upon Himself to carry the load. We are set-free to serve, not in perfection but Holy intention! I love that!!

So fulfilling “Gram” duties, whether night or day, I’m feeding and burping and changing diapers and rocking to sleep and praying for this little one to know the deep, deep love of MY Heavenly Father, too!

An added note from 2021: this little one is growing up big, has trusted Jesus as his Savior (praise the Lord) and presented me with another sonogram! He’s going to be a BIG brother! What an amazing God we serve!

Now as of 2026, the Lord has filled our quiver with many grandchildren, some in heaven but eight on this earth growing up big with a bonus of three foster grands. My greatest desire is to care for the flock that God has entrusted to me. I pray that my prayer life for these grandchildren (as well as our children) would be a fragrant aroma to my Savior and King; A ministry we all can share in!